Shim

The sun bowed out

scattering around the residuum

from twilight through night

bleeding to death.

Crescent rising in dispirited gloom,

silver blaze upon the muted realm.

Clouded silhouette losing the shadow

no more spellbound nights

no breeze to soothe,

only a vision ,

that is darker than the dark to look for

in a far away land a lily boomed for me!!

I see no firefly by my windows only wild bug fluttering on..

expectant heart opened the window with faith

a kind lightening and a soft thunder breaking  silence

every drizzle that followed  filled in life in the empty night!!!!

Stranger

As I turned around I saw her turning away..
I looked on with interest..and she had those curious eyes.....
lovely eyes still something  was missing in them...
energy perhaps or life???
She kept on with my gaze as a mute witness...
till I realized that this stranger in me has become a part of me..
But a smile did flint across as my lips as it curved...

Aura

Against a dark grey wall I caught you unaware 

Wearing just a few old leaves…..

When you walk with troubled thoughts

Come in here and rest for a while..

petals furling, buds unfolding I'm in here……

even in the pearl glow of the moon.

Hold yourself, as you watch the orchids fade away……

all nodding their heads,

smilingly still welcoming you

don’t close Ur heart and mind…

there’s a life out of those walls,

walk in on the shafts of summer sun or when 

the twilight comes to cool or Even

when the moon is low …

for there are still soft breeze blowing through

that would scintillate your spirit……

So tell me would u share a moment!!!!!

Certain points in life

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One of my friends came to me explaining how terrible life has been to her..After all, she said that she deserved to be happy!!!! True we all deserve to be happy, no matter what but then at what cost..Is there a cost for happiness? well in this world nothing comes free not even a simple smile...That being said I got back to my dear friend  to see what her problem really was, from my vantage she had a healthy life with a supportive husband a healthy child and a comfortable life but then its a bird's eye view..But hello we all have problems, at least once in your life a person would have gone through a phase where one feels worthless and low.. It might be when you see a person whom you love is hurt and you can do nothing about it, or when a person whom you trusted with your life betrays you , loss of loved ones and the reasons are endless..But from what I have seen people feel hurt when their loved ones ignore you..I have even witnessed in first person account of how a person drifts to a state of depression as they hold no importance to anyone anymore... But does that mean that you don't have a life of your own? When you hit the rock bottom that could be a solid foundation to start with.. But you know what easily said than done especially its about emotions and when it comes down to it we all want to be loved, hold a special place in someones life..If we all want to be loved and cared then why do so many around us feel lonely ?

All troubles start when you start to take the other person for granted and that is when you start to lose them and we humans are bestowed with an immense talent for taking things for granted.How many times have we taken our parents love for granted , as though they don't have a life of their own, our friends care  for granted as though they were meant to pick up the pieces..We often overlook on how diligently the people in our small bubble do love and care about us, all seems so well that its always easy to let slide ..Most often we overlook  how beautiful our life really, we somehow stop to appreciate it  and we run  run so fast that at one point when we look there would be none to cherish the moment, smile at our achievements after your loved ones might get tired of your indifference..Small task a day one task at a time , is it too much to appreciate your moms coffee with a smile, is it too much to call up a friend and talk to her/him for no real reason, is it too much to surprise your loved one with a rose..Making feel others that you care is not that difficult if only you take time from your mad run of work and profession..

As I sit all by myself just with my cup of coffee I was trying  to look at all the blessings in my life and then it occurred to me that having a  cup of coffee with all peace surrounding me at the cosy comfort of my room itself was blessing.. For I know there are people half planet away from their home missing their dear ones, there are many more out there who don't have friends to share their beautiful moment, many more who don't have a partner to share their mundane activities...Remniscing all the wonderful moments are best thing that could happen to anyone  on a stressful day, when nothing seems right and what if you would stop having those sweet memories to hang on to ?Well then  is high time you to shake yourself from the dusty shell and look around and enjoy a beautiful sunrise, gentle breeze a bud blooming into its glory and all wonderful things that are always around us..

I know writing this my thoughts are rather scattered and random about things but then that is how sometimes you feel like, where one thought relate to another before you realise there are cascade of them and its like you are happy confused determined and high all at the same time..

Love unseen and untold

You came running with all ecstasy with playful charm

You carved your heart taking away mine

And when you walked away you took away a part of me with you forever..

I confessed all my love with my flowers at your feet be in spring or dry summer

Yet for you it was all the playfulness at its glee..

One fine day when you bid  good bye

I could only watch you as a mute spectator

years passed seasons came and went

but my heart had you deep in as my most treasured possession
Calling out for you loud deep into every direction
but you were gone like a dream gone  without a trace

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walkaway

alone at the daybreak

lonely at night

desolate all along

deserted is the path

wandering forlorn

silent settling in the shadow of dark clouds

darker gets the long day

when the fall is inevitable,

standing on edge

that is when the inner peace gushes in

freedom flooding through

feel of bliss

feeling alive..

Monsoon love

The smell of rain

ah monsoon , there you crashed back into my life.

Stillness shaken off, awakened into a new being,

the notes of rain drops tuning to the call of crickets

cacophony of frogs seem like a happy time around me.

breeze whistling to the pitter patter against my window

Lullaby soothing my soul..

Moody sun and playful moon,

All find solace in the monsoon spirit..

The soothing music of rain around,

wonders of the natrure drinking ounce of it

Rejunevated. rekindled

I feel revived , I feel rouse...

Shades

 my own footsteps sounds afar

aloof to my own voice

when I seem distant to my own self

I look up the sky for my distant moon

somehow the distance closes 

that is both comforting and soothing

Bucking of time searing feverous..

Crimson is to apple and rubies so is to rage, blood and sunset.

But then I see a crimson rose and a butterfly fluttering to it, 

I understand that when there are hundred shades for distress there could be thousand shades for delight.

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Rejuvenate

Day's colours begins to fade

for the night to descend..

As the last leaves of the dying tree fall,

rustling through with nothing to linger on

gently disappearing into the shadows 

into the home of darkness..

Emptiness deep and dark

all seem like a nightmare.

the shrill deafening and sharp..

Merciful crescent glimmers its silver ray,

brightening the silhouette all over..  

Radiance of calm lifts the spirit 

soaring and soothing 

this is the horizon where it begins where it seems fade and end..

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Aurora

Closing my eyes floating like a feather  

Smile and let the soul celebrate

Don't fall under the weight of puzzled thoughts

Or clutches of qualms curb you down

Let the spirit liberate

When haze of doubts blind the sight, let determination fasten ahead..

There are maze of mysticism deep and far

Volley of words escape like fallen leaves then rustling away aimlessly

But beyond the horizon only my dream can see

tranquility soothing and serenity 

Let the life begin

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When death comes knocking your door

Death is the most dreaded topic of all ..A topic that makes a happy conversion go gloomy , I find people often uncomfortable when talk about death crops up..Of course I am not much into it either ,because I dread it too simply because everything around me is so beautiful with gods grace that I can't imagine myself out of it..But no matter how much you keep yourself away from it, like birth, death too comes to us or we all step into it one day or other..Few live a full life while for many  it comes early..As a kid I have  wondered what would it be like to be dead, for  I had witnessed death only through movies were the actors come alive in the very next movie, so back then it was never a big deal until I saw  my neighbor die, she died having lived a full life surrounded by her grand children and children peacefully , that is the time when my young mind got a real bite of death, a one way journey from which you don't return from...Though philosophically one can define in many ways, but the fact remains that we lose a person once for all physically after death...

But why am I talking about it  now?? The reason being a sad demise of one of my friends ..She was one of the wonderful persons I have known, though we were not particularly close, we  shared few good moments together back in our college days and managed to stay in touch even after her marriage an subsequent commitments .The news came as a shock , this made me to sit back and pull myself back from my everyday hustle and think about life in a very different dimension..

Every single day we rush and push ourselves a step ahead for everyone around so that we could bring ourselves and our family a better tomorrow..Often we part ways with our loved ones, friends  for trivial things, but if we knew we may not have a day called tomorrow would we act the same way...Would we utter harsh  words that we could never take back?? Many a times, there are people who come our way whom we don't help and lack of time is our most common excuse..What if we knew the person who is standing in front of us didn't have a day called tomorrow would we still ignore him???Would our act be the same way..Perhaps no..We all boast in the name of tomorrow but if if we didn't have such a thing..

Okay now leave about the outside world take the case of our own family, how many times we ignore a call from home in the name of busy schedule..Even if we pick the phone, I have seen many answering the call with their mind and eyes still browsing the internet( I tried that and my mom refused to talk to me the whole day) with half attention to the caller and half on the screen...Few days back one my colleagues happen to tell me that, its been a week that she spoke to her mom, which made me to think that I,  never had that problem., as my mom calls me every single day with so much consistency even on the time of call that many a times I have taken the calls for granted..I never tell her enough how much I appreciate her concern when my days are bad ..I don't tell my dad enough how much it means to me when he tells me that I'm born to cross every hurdle ...I don't tell my friends enough who call up to check on me a midst their very busy schedule if I their messages aren't answered... I have never bother to tell them  how great it feels when they take time from  their work to cheer me up to see a smile across my face...I am one of the luckiest person in the world to be blessed with all the wonderful people in my world..I could have been anyone out there with no one to ask or care for but I'm not..Even on a real bad day I have people  to lean and relax ,people to spill all my box of woes., above all a bliss called life to live by with all its wonder...

So I guess rather than saving for future, its time that we live the moment, for tomorrow never comes..Enjoy , relax ...Smile to a stranger- you never know what difference that could mean upon his dull day.. Render a helping hand whenever needed , see to it that every help that you receive is taken forward for the chain to build on...Live the beauty of life till death comes knocking your way!!!! 

Sojourn

Of all the things

That went wrong ..

At least I have learned to be strong or did I get weaker??

Or worse???

For nothing last forever

Not even the pain

My past days, seem in far distant

Clearing my thought like the surf washes the imprints in sand..

I live by the moments and the moments there

The memories I no longer desire

I’m charring them into ashes

Now things are all new

Nothing I’ve ever known..

To walk the road alone,

I'll take a stroll in the happy days

With bliss and elation surrounding me

Never waiting for spring

I'll enjoy the sunshine..

Even when the green dim, falling and rustling

Still I’ll watch the beauty in faded delight..

I've known much happiness

This is my share of joy that I'll live for eternity...

Gloom

Horizon beclouding, thickening blackening...

loneliness masked in the name of solitude

cold and numb

that no sunshine can ever penetrate

tear sharp and slitting the skin staining deep down
I wish the rain could wash it away..

lost dream cared by none

broken promise, breaking the soul

words that knew no meaning

cheer and laugh seems like a distant past

how to hold the pieces together when everything is shattering around

there are no superman to take away the sorrow..

and now it comes down to me

all alone all the way
but I know someday
a smile will dawn on me shining brighter than the sunshine
and that day is not too far!!!!

Simmer

None curse the breeze for shedding those petals

of a wild flower.

Rustling fallen leaves are only walked over…

Every moment cheerful marigold is scorned..

yet thorny roses are embraced!!!

Is it the mystic beauty that’s  loved?

while steadfast yearning , is disdained

Sun is destined to burn for eternity,yet cast away...

 while crescent is adored upon...

On a dark mourn every silver silhouette is a dreaded liberty

Thinnest of suns ray  kiss a bud to bloom,

But some souls are doomed in neglect...

When drizzle goes unnoticed,

It takes a downpour to make its mark!!!!!

Fervid

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Words that I hid in silence

are shouting high and low in me...

Sailing through the sea of loss

diving into the depth of wreckage..

Notes high of longing and low on yearning

I wish I could smile at least a flint of it

Even when my shadow left..

I felt the solace in darkness..

Mulling the impetuous

I pirouetted in shock

Staggering and stammering when everything seems afar

I wish I could be a loyal rose,

leaving the fragrance even when crushed..

or the faithful sun that rises every morning in spite of the spiteful dusk pushing it afar..

Unvoiced

Words that I hid in silence 

threaten me to escape through eyes...

Some are still stuck between tongue and throat..

There are still  questions that I can't answers.,

answers that really don't fit in...

The delibrate sounds  bring nothing except meaningless expressions..

Losing the space when even silence speakes .,

Now even words don't explain...

Don't the eyes speak??? 

Not when there is nothing could be seen....

Magical fragrance ride through mystic silence..

Fragrance of expressions still lingering on...

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The colour is grey

Breeze that left stillness behind,

Painted stillness engulfing horizon..

grey with the streak of silver

shards of darkness beginning to expand

reigning the lost track ,

to endure deeper herald and darker being..

Life short of dibs

velleity losing its charm...

Just another dream, just another longing to move on..

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Leaving behind...

Ebb crying loud..

Delphic breeze singing high...

Waves cease to touch my feet

cast off leaves rumbling away

Hollow of darkness

lighted by stars

Heart shudders, 

when words are not enough

neglected garden of joy

When healer begings to ache the torn away memory

whom to turn around??

Trust is precious to be granted now..

Believing the fake.,

Living for a lost destiny..

Smiles are hard to flint.,

love for a dommed day is yet to be..

remniscence of tortured memories 

lingers on like an adamant child..

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Along came the wind...

Golden glow of the morning horizon

Hovering bright then ,Setting ablaze

Humbling downby the realm of dusk

Frozen tear melted

I am riddled, scrupling through.,

My heart is painting rainbow again

Romancing to tune of loss..
Even the bravest heart tremor, as the tempest of sorrow falls heavy,
Rumbling leaves stirred by gentle breeze,
Step out listen deep,
Heart questions are undeniable
even when they are obscure
above the wild surging waves,
safer retreat in yourself
gathering along and wading low..
weighing each step through still silence all painted pale.,
Somewhere a loose dull leaf defied the silence playing along the breeze.,
and all swayed gently lifting the melancholy and my spirits....



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Unsung

Falling from an unknown bliss

To the darkest mystery

Everything is speeding up

With not leaving a trace or sign

The urge to know where and why

My heart is racing beyond all odds and illusion

As I fall right away painfully

Not knowing how long it will last..

The pain is eased in a flint second…

Suddenly thrown away from the unknown bliss

The past seems to be still surrounded..

Lost in unknown terrain..

Magic is yet to be unfolded.